All Along The Watchtower

Was up till 4 AM talking to him a few days back. We were chatting on about the school days. We didn't know of each other's existence then.I went on about how i was the "hyper" one is school who would run around singing "Staying Alive.. Staying alive!" and the one who would be stealing Gummy Bears from the candy store just for the heck of it ; while he went on about how he was the casanova of his school and how he was the naughty one!

Realised how much both of us have changed since then. Realised how much people around me have changed since that very same day 2 years back. Realised how much we've evolved, learned, experienced.. and also conviniently forgotten lots of other basic stuff in the process too.

Went a stood in the balcony for a few minutes after we said our goodnight's. The moon looked beautiful that night. But it was the breeze which threw me off. Never thought mumbai would get so cold one day.

I'm roaming around the house all day long with a shawl wrapped around myself and wearing socks to keep my feet warm. Making myself a cup of strong black coffee every 3 hours while i'm sniffing and sneezing away to what seems eternity. However stupid i might be looking, I'm enjoying the sudden change of the season!

Anyway,
Its that time in my life again where all eyes have turned to me.

I hate it when it's that.

With boards and my entrance exams coming up, it seems everyone is this house is carrying their patience on their sleeves and are very conviniently loosing it every 5 minutes. There is an anxiety attack every time i approach the TV or the computer. There is another 15 minutes long lecture everytime i reach for my ipod. It can get VERY infuriating... but atleast now i know better.
My parents are just worried so i don't screw up. So people around me can go look through all my faults and mistakes and just smile and say " She got a 90% in her boards you know! She cleared so many exams too!"
I, on the other hand, just dont want to let myself or people i love down again.

And also, I want to get out of this city and inhabit a hostel for the next 4 years. Just for some taste of indipendence for a change.

It's my 17th birthday today.

I have a record of my birthday's starting out as a very depressing day but ending up in pretty cool way.

Same thing today.

Was very depressed coz

1. NO party .. thus, no friends

2. Dad out of town, mom sick .. thus no eating out

3. Dad out of town, mom sick .. no presents

4. I have a Bio prelim paper to prepare for tomorrow



So, there i was 1 AM today morning whining about how i hate my birthday and how the day is going to suck to Pratik. But he had to be all nice and sweet and be all " Dont worry.. it'll be fine".I was glad he was there to tell me that. I Tried to believe him. But couldnt.

Until now.



Nalini, Sejal and Pavithra dropped my place unexpectedly at 3.30 PM. With the most amazing gifts. Nanu gave me " Shopoholic takes on Manhattan" ( i know.. its a girly book.. but its fun!) , Puffy gave me a Black Pink Floyd Shirt from their '94 Dark side of the moon tour.. WOW! It fits me and everything! and its soooo COOL! plus she got me ACDC and guns n roses ka key chains.. hehe!Sej gave me dog tag, and this VERY amazing shirt which look oh-so-awesome on me! Hung out at CCD. Hogged on Chat. Pratik dropped in too( Didnt give me gift! That bitch! Aaahh.. but I'm glad he came anyway :D) . Had pastries from Monginis. Then hung out at my building for almost an hour. I was 2 hours late. Sej and Pratik both ended up bunking their test at 7.



I am so happy and content right now. Not coz of the "CCD" or the gifts...yeah them too.. but especially coz I know i have friends who'll last forever. They made sure i had a brilliant birthday.And Everyone who mattered .. called and wished.

So this is what birthdays are all about .... Friends and chocolate!

Minds in distress
thoughts in a rut
the line has been snapped
the tones have been cut

The kick on the wall
the slam of the door
the frustration brimming
the anger ashore

A pause of silence
then the moment of truth
the thorn pricks the thumb
blood follows the suit

The sense of denial
then the sense of regret
A quick motion of the hand
You hang by a thread

Saw a "Globe trekker" Special on Discovery last night.It was based on Pirates and their glorious era. I never really like Pirates or anything related to them.
Ever.
I haven't even seen the "Pirates of the Caribbean" coz the promos bored me to death. But yesterday special turned out to be quite interesting. Megan McCormick ( who I think is very pretty!) ended up going to places like Jamaica , Spain and Peru and stuff... you know, where the pirates would attack the most for gold and all.
Turns out the greatest Pirate of all times( Francis Drake, English pirate ) died on my birthday!

FINE, maybe he died on 28th of Jan 1595, while i was born on 28th Jan 1991... but you get my drift.

Which reminds me.. my birthday is due in about a month or so. I'm kinda bummed that I wont get to celebrate it( stupid board exams!).. so I'm guessing no cool presents either :(
I'm bored now.
I have my English Prelim in sometime.
And I'm too pissed off to figure out if the sentence is Past Perfect or Present continuous.
I think I'll try Peanuts to make me feel better.

I still try to figure out what this blog is actually about.. is it just pages filled with my fears and insecurities.. or just any random bullshit thoughts which seem to occupy my head these days?

Meeh.. it's both i guess.

And I know i am not causing any difficulties to anyone else, considering that no one actually reads this :P ( Except those few whom have no choice but to read as i have a loaded gun against their temples)



Day before was fun. Pratik , Jatin and Rohit performed at Youth Nexus.They competed in this band competiton. Me, Pavithra , Vipin and Elaisha were there to cheer them on. We had a fun time making fun of the other bands which had a pre teenage boy playing the part of Axl Rose and this other dude crooning away a KK single."Rocking" i tell you!

But we all had fun ..commenting loudly on the naked guys strutting their stuff on ramp, drolling over the chinki guys playing football.. quality time, i tell you.

After,we ended up shooting a movie and everything.Took some funny pics of us all too.Shall upload them if i ever get my hands on them.

We decided to stop at Infinity for a piece of grub. But later realised we had money for nothing but a packet of sugar from CCD. So pavithra, myself, pratik and vipin ended up checking out random chicks and trying to figure out who had the best butt.

Hmmph.. a productive day.through and through.






Had to rush back home. Travelled by train for maybe the 7th time in my life( I know,I know, i should be ashamed to call myself a mumbaikar)Was supposed to be home by 6.15 after "Physics Practicals". But took off my shoes at 7.30 instead. Parents were super pissed. But that was totally justified under the circumstances( i had a prelim exam the next day).

So, here i am.. rambling about utter crap.



UH oh.. i feel the disgusting feeling of guilt coming in.

Got my college prelims from tomorrow.

My study desk beckons me.

*Sigh*